Today, the sun is hot. Really hot.
But I can't help smiling. It's part of my unpredictable mood swings. One moment I will be on my lowest low, and then I'll be up, up, up.
(Mom constantly complains about my mood swings.)
But you can't help being cheerful on sunny days. Can't you?
Once, on one of my 'raynie days', Bay said I looked possessed and impersonated me staring blankly into space. I didn't think that was nice.
I can't help it. I can't help feeling blue for no reason.
(Ask Erica. She saw me cry for no reason in class. Twice.)
I hate forcing myself to smile and joke when I know I'm screaming inside.
But thank God for sunny days.
At least on sunny days I can smile freely, whenever I wanted to. At least I don't have to pretend around anymore.
So, smile on sunny days! :-)
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